I'm Troubled

I have been in therapy off and on for 20 years. I test highly(in a not so good way) on tests for: depression, antisocial personality disorder, avoidant p.d., bi-polar but feel i havn't been given a proper diagnoses. My main problem is in society, I avoid eye contact and the question"how are you" which bugs the life out of me. People don't want the truth and I have too much integrity to lie several times a day. So I say nothing. I just get annoyed. People always read my body language as being angry or sad and this annoys me b/c i'm not always feeling that way until they preassume it. In turn, their "judgement" makes me feel angry and depressed. It's complex. i need to here i'm not the only one with this view.
chefhendrix chefhendrix
31-35, M
May 25, 2012