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Seeking Advice

On the outside I'm a 23 year old college grad. I am good looking, have a great job and am considered the "lucky" guy by all of my friends and the life of the party. I have a great family, and everyone I meet says, "I can't believe your single". The truth is, my girlfriend broke up with me about 6 months ago and I have been severly depressed ever since. I show myself as a happy go lucky guy and don't ever let anyone in. But really what I want to do is go home, cry, drink, and fall asleep; forgetting about everything. I recently have been drinking excessively (a half gallon every 2-3 days). The problem is, even if I drink myself to sleep, every time I wake up for 1 second, my mind starts going every which way and I can never go back to sleep. (i'm averaging 3-4 hours a night). I want to go out and meet new people, but at the same time, I just want to curl up in a ball. The main reason I don't let anyone in, is I don't want them to feel sorry for me (which I know is my issue to deal with). Recently I have been watching a lot of suicide shows and constantly think about it (don't worry, I would NEVER do it). I just hate how I feel like I'm always wearing a mask, pretending, and can never express how I feel to anyone. Thats why I'm writing this. I need some advice on how to get by this. I know i am blessed to have what I have, but why do I feel like I'm so alone and no one loves me... I know their must be someone out their like me.
LivingALie1989 LivingALie1989 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 27, 2012

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I'm 14 and live maryland

Yeah but I'm not twenty and I don't drink. I feel depressed everyday and I never want to leave my room. But your young from a 60 year old's view. Everyone breaks up but in sometime you need to let go even if it hurts and let someone give you the comfort you need. Everyone needs a hug once in awhile. Right

Where do you live and what is your age? I live in indianapolis