Perpetual Depression?

I've been dealing with depression for 4 years. I thought I had gotten rid of it but it's back now and it's worse than ever. I've started making myself physically ill, I cry all the time and I wish I had the strength to end it all. I really do.
My best friend who I've been engaged in a less than platonic relationship with laughs at me and tells me to "get over it" despite having suffered with depression himself. My family are dealing with their own issue and so I don't feel I can burden them. Doctors are helpful but waiting lists mean I'm coping with this alone.

I wish I weren't here. I'd give anything to fall asleep and never wake up.
Sandygrayskies Sandygrayskies
1 Response Feb 3, 2012

Pull the trigger, end this illusion

Go **** yourself.