Always Depressed

I don't know where to start.  I am very depressed right now and I'm going to a new DR on Thursday.  I'm currently taking 20mg Lexapro / day and it doesn't seem to help.  Whenever I get on a new med it seems to help for a short time but then it always seems that the meds quit working.

I am sad most of the time, I do not enjoy what I used to do, I don't talk to *anyone*, I am very quiet and I shield my thoughts and feelings from friends, family, co-workers, wife.  I have said time and time again lately that "I hate myself, and I hate my life".  I cannot stand to on living like this - something must give somewhere.

Maybe this "Experience Project" will help, maybe not.  The jury is still out.

trbbhm trbbhm
36-40, M
2 Responses Apr 16, 2007

THAT DOESNT HELP I CUT MYSELF AND HATE MYSELF I CUT MYSELF IN THE FACE CAUSE IM UGLY MY WIFE LEFT ME CAUSE IM ****** UP I WANT TO DIE

Don't give up. It sometimes takes awhile to feel better. You are working on it. That is good. Believe that you will feel better in future. I believe that you will. I know that sometimes words do not help. I was so deep into depression in the past two years. It feels awful. I am feeling better today. Slight depression. I am not doing to much at the moment but the deep deep depression has left me. So I know it can be battled. I felt tired, but hang in there. Your mood will improve. I read a lot of books. Some helped. Tried to change my thinking and refuse to beat myself up anymore. Keep sharing. People care.