Underneath All That Crap

I've met so many people. And through my experience of sitting at the sidelines and people watching. I have noticed that usually the happiest people who smile/laugh/talk the most usually are the most depressed. Perhaps it is because of the fact that they crave happiness, and hope to find it in socializing and making friends? But I've learned that underneath all that crap, there's a real person. Underneath the happy smiles, laughs and jokes, there is a lonely person hoping to feel wanted in this world.

And I know because I think I'm one of these people. Keeping secrets all the time. Crying quietly to myself after locking myself in the closet. Hating myself.

So next time you try to compare yourself to someone who you think is perfect, or happier than you, please take a look beneath the surface. I think that's what I/we need most right now.

I feel like a freak sometimes. Do you?
Dannylin123 Dannylin123
13-15
1 Response Dec 9, 2012

Your words have pined my feelings. I feel the same about being happy on the outside and lonely inside. But I do not feel like a freak. Why do you?

Thank you.
Because I feel like there is nobody that is like me. I've always been different (personality wise). Eccentric. That's what really made me lonely. I don't exactly fit in, but at the same time I respect myself too much to change myself just to be like others. I don't know...

Well, I think in that way you are superior to others and think in a more complicated way, observe and see more than many ever care to notice. This is not being a freak, this is being intelligent. The way you write shows it too. I am sorry you feel depressed sometimes - you are really worth feeling special in a good way