I hav a brother
A who is 18 four years older than me,he is severly disabled and needs 24 hour care.I have to get up at 6 every mornin to help him get ready and as soon as i get home i have to let him in make his tea and get him ready for bed.My mum is a single mum and has to work long hours to keep us afloat.The only reason she had me was so i could look after my brother.I am not allowed to go to university as i hav 2 stay home to look after A.He is my responsibility and that is too much weight on my shoulders. I am a teenage girl,I love my bro to bits but i need to hav some time to myself.I am so jealous of the girls at school who have a free life,who cry over a broken nail when i hav 2 deal with epileptic fits,who have no responsibilities, who can go to sleep not worried that their brother will die in the night or what will happen as he deteriorates.I feel suicidal because everyone else is free to live their life and i am chained down,i always wanted to b a musician but that will never happen,as soon as im 18 i will hav 2 spend my life being a full time carer,what man will want me? how can i have kids when he takes up so much of my time? I feel constantly depressed and cant remember the last timei was happy.Sorry about this u dont hav 2 read it.btw iam 14 not in my 30s i did that so i could add contact friends easily.