I'Ll Tell You About Yesterday.So yesterday being the wretch I am was one of "those" days. I woke up with gloom in my heart. Being England the weather was perfectly gloomy, nice and gray.
I felt different, like I was hanging on a thread. I got to college, a few minutes late I stopped going in early when the woman left my life. Anyway.
So there I was sitted listening to my tutor mindlessly drone about the boring **** we'd be doing today and for some reason I was feeling fed-up and extremely angry I was thinking the whole time. "I came in for this ****?" You see getting up out of bed for me should really award achievement points.
It's the first fight I face when I awake from slumper. Back to the story. So my tutor left the room told while she went to get something and I just...snapped. I just got up, left the room, left college walked to the train station bought a ticket to London and just went.
I had to be alone, I felt like the walls had closed in on me. And you know what, it felt good. It felt bloody great to just leave like that. I had a lonely day as usual but it was less lonely because I didn't have to be lonely around people.
I went to my favourite place, the Nation Gallery and spent an hour just looking at the paintings. I tried to find Caravaggio again but too many school kids so I left, went to the British Library read for a bit then decided to go to a museum.
I went to the Natural History Museum. Pretty awesome stuff there. And then I just watched traffic from a Balcony near Kings Cross and got a MacDonalds and took the train home.
I got home about 7pm my stepdad told me the college weren't happy. I couldn't care less to be honest. I had a less depressing day, I stayed away from anywhere with a bridge though just in case I though **** it. Sometimes I really would do it.
My stepdad understanding as always told me I have to and I quote "Snap out of this depression thing, just sort yourself out."
I nearly walked out the door. He doesn't understand how it feels. Everyday, the war that goes on in my head the war that's just a stalemate.
Anyway that was my day. Then I watched House of Cards on Netflix. ******* brilliant, recommend it.