Feeling Shitey

I get so tired of the ups and downs.  I've felt really bad the last 2 days.  Don't know exactly why.  I think it's partially from being let down by other people.  I start feeling good about something and then it's pulled out from under me.  Every time.  I'm sure it's through some fault of my own that I'm continuosly rejected.  Not really sure what it is that I do.  Every time it happens though I get less motivated to try or to care.  I guess I just need to stick to my own life, work on my music, and stop trying to give myself false hope through interaction with others.
ReformedAutomaton ReformedAutomaton
41-45, M
1 Response Jun 22, 2007

oh my god i used to be like that all the time, i had so many ups and downs i just gave up, i used to just go out with mates to keep them happy not because i wanted to, then i just thought why bother, so i stopped seein mates and let them down when they asked me to go out. The best thing you can do is be selfish every so often, it will go along way, instead of doing things you don't want to do just to please people start doin what you want to do and give yourself space and time to do it. music which has a upbeat rhyme to it something that lifts your mood might help you<br />
good luck xxxx