I Am Depressed

So I'm Depressed...what Now?

By: stuckinbetween

Written on March 26th, 2010

I have accepted the fact that i'm depressed. I would love to talk to someone but live in a country where that doesn't really exist.

I think the depression of living here and being in the situation i'm in is causing me breathing problems. Well I didn't think of that on my own, someone asked me if I ever thought the reason i sometimes have breathing problems is because im depressed.Well it is a big possibility.

I recently moved here and have no one to talk to. All my friends live thousands of miles away. I want to tell someone I don't want this life anymore. I want to leave and start over somewhere new without him.

My husband changed. I married him after being best friends with him for 3 years. Now its like I don't know him anymore. I don't understand where I lost him. He's become controlling, cold, close-minded and everything any typical man from this region is. I married him because he was not. Freedom and being independent is very important to me, and hard for me to give up for anyone.

Yesterday he told me "start acting like a wife". I never knew that the term meant anything different from the person he's been in love with for 4 years. I don't understand why he expects me to change. I don't fit into this culture....and he knew that better than anyone.

So he's making me choose.....either me or him.

He already assumes I chose him....I'm just taking my time to re-think and re-evaluate my decisions.

By: stuckinbetween

Age: 26-30

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5 responses

soul2soul87

good you accepted your depression , now you have a point to start from and solve it ,I too begin to accept my depression , I am not sure if it is really depression but it looks like that , anyway ,the mistake of marrying an arabian person ( I supposed he is arabian) is that after a little time he became close-minded or lets say he shows his real face ,I am arabian and understand this kind of men!

Apr 21, 2010
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gia98

Cultural difference is tough to deal with, sometimes you can't breath...

Mar 26, 2010
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stuckinbetween

I live in a third world Arab country (rather not say where exactly)

I come from an American background (hence the open-minded part)

We both lived in the gulf a year and a half ago...we were fine and everything was great.

I think its just the fact that we moved back to our "home" country and ppl are judgmental... Its all about reputation in this country...so disgusting.

We just "made up" from our last fight...or at least he thinks we did. I act like im ok but when i talk to him its like i'm forcing it...like im forcing myself to act normal. I figure i want to give myself time before i make any drastic decisions. I need to think it over when im not hating him.

Mar 26, 2010
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TedMichaelMorgan

You need a safe place. What sort of culture are you in now and from what sort did you come?

Mar 26, 2010
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TedMichaelMorgan

Medication combined with therapy helps immensely. It makes the difference between not being able to live and being alive and even happy.

Mar 26, 2010
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