Where I Belong?

i feel soo different. i know that i do not belong here but noone supports me. I am 18 years old and i will go abroad for studies but i can not find support from anyone...even my mother. why is this happenning?? i can not understand her. i was so confidental...i just wanted to liive, and now i feel that i will not be able to survive. she is trying to make me feel that i am stupid and i do not deserve anything...
i start feeling stupid.... that i am telling bullshits!! i can not bear it anymooree!! i can not bear myseelf....i don't want to talk to other coz i am afraid of what i will say://i need to believe to myself....but if i'm really stupid??how can i learn it? buuuffff............
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18-21, F
Aug 10, 2010