I Also Lost My Mother, My Best Friend, My World

I lost my mum in March to a brain Tumour. I miss her so much. I spent everyday with her. She was always there for me and listened to me and never judged. Now shes gone there is no one who is truly there for me. I have fallen out with family members who I thought loved me. Now she is gone I realise they never truly cared. I have a partner but I don't talk to him because I don't think he wants to hear me anymore go on about how much pain I'm in. I have never felt so alone in all my life. I have recently had a baby and she is the one thing that seems to keep me going. She was born less than a week after my mum's funeral. If I didn't have her or my other daughter I would end my life for sure. I feel no one wants to hear what I have to say. I just want to talk about her. I want to talk about all the wonderful things she did for me and for others. She was truely an ANGEL sent from God to make this world a better place. Now she is gone life feels meaningless. I feel angry at everyone around me because they can't give me what she gave me. I feel so hateful towards my partner because he doesn't care for me the way my mum did. I pray there is an after life and that I will see her again. Some say that my baby could be the reincarnation of my mum. I hope so. I certainly feel very close to her. I did from the minute she was born. I know I will never feel complete ever again. I miss her so very very very much.
besi besi
2 Responses Jul 25, 2010

I feel exactly like you and missmy mum terribly. She was from scotland and i am in america without her. Life has little meaning. You are so lucky to have a daughter. Very blessed.<br />
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I was an only child. I did take her places before she passed. Just like you no one is like her or gives me the things or advice that she did. She was wonderful. So i have to keep on trucking, sometimes i wonder why?<br />
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Sorry to here about mother .It is hard on us and hurt and pain can run deep inside us .sometime we look to other to fill up the love we loss and if we dont find it ,,we can get anger over it . but you must remember won thing ,,that one can replace the love of another .it is love she gave that she wood like you to pass on not your anger . so love other like your mother love you . this what i think she wood like you to do hope thing get better for your friend Tom