Celeste Is Dead

I read your story and I have an understanding. My daughter has lived on the downtown eastside of Van for a long time dealing with her addictions.

*hugs* I hope that as time passes on, you will find peace with it all...

Different situations obviously, but I can really relate to your story too. Even down to the blood, urine, and garbage. Although, seeing that way probably really hard for you, my mom couldn't walk the last six months of her life, and she didn't have a choice really to some of the things she'd been doing, cause up until I came back into her life, she didn't have anyone but the nurses from home health care.

I know dealing with my mom was hard growing up with her being an alcoholic, I can't imagine having a mother with a crack addiction. Addiction is addiction, but i imagine, that seeing something as hard as crack, could not have been easy to handle. But good that you got yourself away from it, I can't imagine what it felt like when you found out your mother had died. I know you probably realize this, but don't feel guilty. I struggled with this for awhile, and it lessened when I found out she'd nearly drank herself to death, and I had time to deal to an extent for almost a year up until the point of my moms death. So I was able to let go of most of my guilt. But you never got that chance, I know I don't know you well, but if you ever need a friend to talk to, I'm here for you. No one should have to deal with this alone, and I'm here for you if you need an extra friend :) *hugs* Keep your head up, and try to deal with some of the emotions, I stuffed mine down for awhile, and it came back at me, and probably will again lol But anyway, I'm rambling, I hope you're doing alright, I know it wasn't that long ago that you lost her, but I hope you're okay. Message me if you want a new friend, if you need me, whatever :) More *hugs* Now i'll hush :P