My Mother Passed Almost 3 Months Ago And I Am Lost In The WorldHi. My name is Marissa. I just turned 21 last month, and lost my mother to stage 4 breast cancer on april 2, 2012.
My mother and I lived together in NYC. We were closer than close. I never felt a connection to anyone else as strong as I did to my mom. We did everything together. When I found out in january of 2011 that she was diagnosed with breast cancer, I felt myself driffting away from her. I distanced myself a little bit, I suppose to prepare for the worst. When she told me she was seriously ill and was told by the doctors that she was going to die within the next few months, I accused her of being dramatic. I cried about it but I did not believe she would actually die. There is no need to go into the final moments of her life, since it is too painful for me to think about.
I have not really mourned my mothers death until now. I met a guy around the time my mom was dying, who is now my boyfriend. This has helped with distracting me from the loss of my mom, but now I am feeling the strong pain. I cry everytime I look at her picture. I go to work and I look up movies of loss online. I would join a support group, but I'm not good at committing to things. Especially after a longs day of work.
I'm looking for someone who has gone through a similar loss, who can talk to me and comfort me.
Right now I get to comfort from my dad. He has lost his mind since my mother has passed. And my boyfriend has not mentioned or asked about my moms death. I'm not sure if he feels awkward about it or he just doesn't want me to be reminded, but this leaves me with no one to talk to except my therapist and my family, who do not know what I am going through.
Please, any advice would help.