I Am Different Since My Mother Died
It's been 5 years now. She was sick. At first doctors said it's nothing serious, she'll need some small operation and that's it. But I guess.. they always say that. I was 18. She had the surgery and than they said she'll need to go on chemo-therapy for a few months. Now, back then I didn't know what the hack is chemo but now I know that it happens most of the time when u have cancer. And I also know, that most of the patients.. are dying during it.
Nobody told me how serious it is. I never, ever.. expected that she could die. I realized it when I saw my aunt (her sister) coming with the tears in her eyes. I was lost dude.. I didn't know how to react.. I wanted to cry so loud but I couldn't. It was pressing my chests.. It was 2 days after my prom night.
My dad died two years later... he couldn't live without her, always drinking.. always drunk. Kinda selfish from his side.. he had a reason to live.. he left two kids alone.
I am not saying I was a child and I needed her to look after me (or him), but why.. why on earth **** like this happens to people? I graduated, and I feel empty cause there was nobody left to show my achievement. What's even worse, my sister is getting married soon and I feel so damn sad she wouldn't have mom and dad beside her.
I kinda took the next step.. but sometimes I miss her so much. And the worst thing is.. slowly I am forgetting how did she looked, what was she wearing, how did she smelled, how did she act.. I miss all of that.
As for my father, I can pass him.. since the selfish bastard left us without regret.
Nobody told me how serious it is. I never, ever.. expected that she could die. I realized it when I saw my aunt (her sister) coming with the tears in her eyes. I was lost dude.. I didn't know how to react.. I wanted to cry so loud but I couldn't. It was pressing my chests.. It was 2 days after my prom night.
My dad died two years later... he couldn't live without her, always drinking.. always drunk. Kinda selfish from his side.. he had a reason to live.. he left two kids alone.
I am not saying I was a child and I needed her to look after me (or him), but why.. why on earth **** like this happens to people? I graduated, and I feel empty cause there was nobody left to show my achievement. What's even worse, my sister is getting married soon and I feel so damn sad she wouldn't have mom and dad beside her.
I kinda took the next step.. but sometimes I miss her so much. And the worst thing is.. slowly I am forgetting how did she looked, what was she wearing, how did she smelled, how did she act.. I miss all of that.
As for my father, I can pass him.. since the selfish bastard left us without regret.
By:
igoreal
Age:
22-25
,
Male
