I lost my dearest mother last month. she had pulmonary hypertension. We all were there but we couldn't save her. We saw her struggling for breath and she was still at 2.45 am. She was only 46. I can't believe she's gone. I used to think myself powerful but I couldn't ease her pain.
It's a great loss to me. I don't want to be without her love at age 21. I wanted to give her happiness, fulfill her dreams. Now nothing interests me. She even didn't give me the chance to repay her love. what have I done to deserve this? I see everyone out there happy because they have their parents. Why am I not lucky like them? now I have nothing left but tears. I have realized that it requires great luck to have our parents till our 30s or 40s. The moments spent with my mom were the happiest moments of my life. Now even all the money in the world can't give me those golden moments back.
I believe that our loved ones are with gods in heaven. they are free from this worldly cruelty. I am just praying to god to give her all joy in the world that we couldn't give her, to keep her happy.
I want to tell others that please never ever disrespect your parents. Give them lot of happiness. they are your greatest precious treasure. Please be with them. Your parents need you.
Where she walked, there was light.