I Wish It Was Easier.

I wish I could open up.
Tell people what I feel and what's going on.
There's a block, a block from myself to the world.
This wall that no one has ever tried to break down.
I fear the day when someone tries to break that wall down and love me.
I'm afraid of being known intimately.
I'm afraid of feeling love, when I don't remember what it feels like.
Childhood memories are far and distant and out of reach.
I blocked all the good memories out of my head.
It's been so long since I felt the arms of love wrap me up and hold me tight.
It's been so long.
So long.
ashlynnx ashlynnx
26-30, F
Jul 17, 2010