Feel Like Im Going Nowhere

i decided to write about this because at the moment i am feeling extremely disappointed in myself and i need to get it out somewhere.

Last year i went through a pretty severe bout of depression, and everything fell apart.  Before this i was a good student and friend; a good daughter and was working towards something, even if i didn't know exactly what that was.

Now that i am out of the depression, i just cant seem to pull myself back up to where i was before.  I am failing or almost failing most of my courses, i dropped off of the gymnastics team, and i cant seem to pick myself up and get myself going again.  i constantly just find myself sitting around thinking about how worthless i am and how im never going to get anywhere.

Another thing that weighs heavily on my mind is that all my friends are applying for colleges and getting in and are all excited about it, and theyre getting jobs and cars and scholarships and everything..and im not doing any of that, and i feel like im missing out on a huge part of my life..but i feel like its too late to do anything about it and im very disappointed in myself because i know that if i try i can do those things.

For example, i am supposed to be doing a paper and project right now..but i am in a "im worthless at everything" mood and i dont think that i can get it done on time, which puts my passing grade in serious jepoardy.  I just feel like its pointless to try.

Maybe i need professional help to get myself going.
Megalomaniac Megalomaniac
18-21, F
3 Responses Jan 1, 2008

what makes you think that way..maybe there is something behind all of these...You are still young and i know everyone loves you...

Hey, I stumbled upon your post because I'm feeling the same way, and I'm already 24 years old this year. My advice to you is that You are definitely not worthless, and worthless at everything? That's impossible, in fact, I bet you are probably very good at most of the things you pay your attention to, it sounds like you are very hard on yourself, and people who do that tend to be perfectionists.<br />
There are lots of things to look forward to in life, and looking forward to those things make me want to work harder and strive harder, even though I have a serious problem with laziness and procrastination. <br />
Surround yourself with love, love from your family, love from your friends, love from a pet, love from a plant, most importantly, don't forget to love yourself!

I don't know too many megalomaniacs who suffer from depression. Most teenagers are a little self-absorbed and you just seem to be dwelling on your problems which I do myself. Why not make a list of what you need to accomplish and work on something each day without thinking that you are behind. Even if you still feel behind you will be further ahead than before and more than just dwelling on what is not being accomplished.