Disgusted By Myself

I guess I agree with the premise of this group, but I also see myself as greedy, indeed most arrising out of western culture are. My case is quite specific.

I recently won a very prestigious award to any graduate school of my choice within Canada, and while this elated me, I am still empty. I guess I want love, but whenever i think of that, I feel that I am asking for too much.

While not overly religious, I feel that God does listen to those who speak to him/her, and i feel like my prayers were answered in granting me the funds to continue my studies.

Why should it be the case that I find love. I havent been on a date in years, but even if someone was willing to date me,  I would feel guilt for some reason, like I was unworthy and undeserving.

hellas93 hellas93
18-21, M
1 Response Feb 22, 2009

I'm sorry you feel the, for me, inexplicable guilt. I really don't think you should feel that way. It is perfectly normal for us to want to be loved.<br />
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I hope it works out soon!