I Am Disrepected More By My Family Than Strangers...

I'm so sick of it. I've always did what I was told, always helped out, always sacrificed everything for them, and I always did my best to keep my anger, frustration, sadness, and such tucked away inside me because this was/is my family and I loved them no matter what and I still do. I still do and give everything I have and can. I'm only 17 years old and yet so much is expected out of me, it's suffocating, literally...
I've tried so many times to get through to them, but they all say I'm dramatic and that I need to read the Bible more, but that's not what I want or need. What I need is a family not a trial... I want to be understood at least a little bit, if it's just a little bit, then I'm sure I'll be fine enough to go on without having to keep so much turmoil within myself. It's retarded how I just keep giving without reason and or thought, and how I just keep taking and catching their insults, criticism, and disrespect towards me. Even as it damages me inside -out, I keep going along with this disgusting cycle that has been created. I just want to be free, I want everything I need and or want for once, I want to be seen and understood a bit better. I'm willing to talk. I'm willing to get better. I'm "still" willing to sacrifice.
StrongHeart937 StrongHeart937
18-21, F
1 Response Jul 14, 2010

You need to become more cold towards them and show lack of interest in what they say as well.
I know what it is like to be in a famly where everyrone takes their frustrations out on you and insult you. They think they can do this because they have authority over you merely because they are older.
You cannot do much in such a situation, so the most effective move would be to emotionally distance yourself from them and display a lack of affection and genuine interest to help them. They may criticise you for doing that, but such behaviour will shake them up a bit when they realise that they are losing you. Don't sacrifice for them. Don't be religious because of them. They don't deserve it.