Even though I am very much aware that some of the men I dated and, particularly the man I ended up marrying fall into the " What the hell was I thinking ?" category, now that I am finally divorced and on my own, I don´t seem to be making much improvement in the "moving on" department.
Sure, I managed to get out of a horrible marriage and I have accomplished a few things professionally speaking, but it is the emotional (love) aspect of my life that seems to be stuck in time with no prospects of changing any time soon.
What I am trying to say is that even though some parts of me recovered from the ugly marriage and divorce, I feel I am still in mourning and can not seem to put that all behind and start anew with someone else.
I constantly read about people who get divorced and quickly fall in love again and eventually marry and move on and start over, in most cases with happily ever afters, but in my case I see that as such a remote event it actually makes me not even want to try anymore, even though I would love to ... someday.