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I Am Down the Rabbit Hole - Poems From "Recovery Road"

This Bud's For You

By: HeavenBesideYou
Written on September 30th, 2008
Age: 41-45 , Female
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    HeavenBesideYou

    We definatly have a lot in common with what we are going through, Rock... You have been there for me and I know you will continue to be. Thanks for being such a great friend. Hugs.

    Oct 9, 2008
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    bassplayer

    I am always amazed by the number of people going through something so similar........it has helped me heal so much. The biggest thanks ever to EP and my wonderful friends here.

    Especially my Rock Candy :)

    Oct 9, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Thanks gonewiththewind. Yes, It does help. Especially with all the dynamics that go with it that you don't even realize are related until you get with people who have been through the same thing and then it is truly and "ah ha" moment...



    Hugs to you Hon, my life is getting better by the minute...

    Oct 9, 2008
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    DancesWithWolves

    This is not an easy path. It is nice to see that others are sharing the hurt and getting it out.



    Good luck HBY. It is so nice when all of the Bud is gone. Your life will get better everything will get better.

    Oct 9, 2008
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    bassplayer

    :)

    Oct 1, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Happy silly drunks are def. welcome... as long as they wear sunglasses, of course :)

    Oct 1, 2008
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    bassplayer

    How about happy silly drunks :)

    Oct 1, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Now that is a thought! A pool party on a bright sunny day! And I don't care if there is beer, although personally I think it is nasty and prefer foo foo drinks when I partake... No mean and nasty drunks allowed though, and that is a firm rule!



    Better get those shades ordered huh? Umm... Polarized ones. Got it. :)

    Oct 1, 2008
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    redman

    thanks dan...... HBY why a truckload are you doing a pool party LOL... No Beer allowed....

    Oct 1, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    And you on yours, Redman... Hugs.



    Maybe we should just buy a truckload of sunglasses :)

    Oct 1, 2008
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    redman

    Good luck to all on your future....

    Oct 1, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Thanks Dan. I know you have had your share of dealing with this kind of thing yourself...



    Hope you didn't forget your sunglasses :)

    Oct 1, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Yes it is Bass.



    I am anxiously waiting for that sunny day! Patience and Persistance will get me there.



    Sunscreen and shades ready and waiting!

    Sep 30, 2008
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    bassplayer

    I have found in recent times that the comparative to my crappy past only serves to make me ever more appreciate my current life and the wonderful lady I get to share it with. Put your sunglasses on babe cause it's going to shine :)

    Sep 30, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    I hear what you are saying ElLagarto... and it is the bottle that let's them out? Regardless, I am over dealing with it, and I am moving toward a better place. Hugs.

    Sep 30, 2008
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    ElLagarto

    I hear you, and I'm sorry, but the point is - bottling up feelings never works - they always find a way to come out - when they do it's usually in a hurtful way - as they did in your case.

    Sep 30, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Thanks Loop. I will def. check it out when I have a sec... about to head out with my daughter...



    ElLagarto. All I can think of when i read that is I wish he had bottled up his feelings instead of letting all that nastiness out on me...

    Sep 30, 2008
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    ElLagarto

    Feeling No Pain



    Bottled up feelings

    Sorrow

    Buried like treasure

    Fury

    Compressed

    Like oxygen

    Pain

    Kept under lock and key

    With 24 hour

    Security

    Bottled up feelings

    Bottles of booze



    Alistair McHarg

    Sep 30, 2008
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    loopnscc

    I copied something into a story in I am trapped. It helped me figure out stuff.
    http://www.experienceproject.com/uw.php?e... />
    I also have a blog called difficult people that you might understand.

    For me it wasn't the booze, but something else, but the end result was the same.

    Sep 30, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    You know more of my story than most, FG, in fact you have been through alot of it with me these past few months...



    Thanks for always being there for me Hon, I love you too.

    Sep 30, 2008
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    fungirlmmm

    Very nice and knowing your story this is so true. Very well written... thanks for sharing. I love you girl.

    Sep 30, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Hugs, Lady. Sorry you have had to live with this too...

    It is NEVER their fault or the fault of the drinking, nothing is. In fact, it is all YOUR fault, isn't it?

    I heard so many times "I lost my temper because you did this or that or didn't do this or that and it made me mad".

    I read countless books and had countless talks with him before I threw in the towel. Mine, like yours, is totally responsible for his own actions, no one else, and don't let them ever convince you otherwise girl.

    WHATEVER. One of my favorite words in dealing with him. Usually punctuated..... WHAT THE **** EVER!!!! LOL

    Sep 30, 2008
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    HeavenBesideYou

    Thanks Redman... I know I am doing the right thing for myself. Finally. Hugs 2U2 :)

    Sep 30, 2008
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    redman

    I like it. It does tell the truth. And you are doing the right thing....

    Hugssssssssss

    Sep 30, 2008
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