At The Moment
At the moment there's one thing for me
only one thing that will set me free
I'm ready to walk straight out that door
cause right now I can't take anymore.
I'm not a rag just to abuse
Try if you must, but I will refuse
I'm a person dad, why can't you see
that gradually you are killing me.
Do you ever wonder why I always cry?
Did you care when you saw I wanted to die?
I needed help but you didn't care
all this pain is too much to bear.
You are no help - I cope alone
Is it that your heart is stone?
Maybe you just can't face your fears
face the fact I can't stop my tears.
Face the fact you broke my heart
face the fact you've torn me apart.
Maybe it is that you hurt too
But who hurts more - me or you?
I am your child and you should see
There's so much anger inside of me
Dad I need help out of this mess
Just quit the crap - you don't know best.
If you were even half a father
you would blame him - my darling brother.
Cause he hurt me and took my life
Left me here holding a knife.
Deciding whether to cut or not
Keep on fighting or quit the lot.
So dad what is it - will you help me out
Don't leave me standing here in doubt.
Cause I'm on the edge about to fall
It's up to you to play the ball
Help me live or push me down
Help me smile or let me frown.
Dad, make the choice - it's in you court
shall I just cut my life short?
Would you be content if I was gone
If I am weak, will you be strong.
If I am far, will you be near
throw me out or hold me dear
It's up to you - please make your choice
Speak now - let me hear your voice.
It's not up to me what will be done
If I lose, I'll admit you've won
I'll give in if that's what you need
You are the flower, I'm just the seed.
You've had you chance to grow and bloom
But you've left me in a darkened room
So ultimately you've made your decision
To kill me - Was that your mission?