Alone and Upset I Am Dyslexic

At first my family thought I was the funny youngest child, getting mixed up did not matter until I went to school

then the unhappiness started.

I cried every day, I  was told off for crying at home, I thought I was different, then I thought I was stupid and then I was told I was lazy.I began to hate school, I started to self harm to avoid Thursdays spelling tests. I had panic attacks at 9 years old about going to school. My mother would shout at me and tell me that  I was lazy and if I didn't buck up I would end up in a home where they sent all the funny people were sent and that I would be a burden to society

I cant write any more because I cant see the keyboard for tears

watermark watermark
46-50, F
3 Responses Sep 21, 2009

water i can understand what you went threw i went threw the same thing<br />
i was tonted by a teacher calling me lazy and she just scr me to death i was just learning how to read and i couldnt sound out wiords . it bothered me . i still at 46 have problems reading and writting <br />
teacher that hasnt had a child with dyxlica of her own just dont unerstand us how we think and learn. i have found ways to teach myself .

I am very dyslexic and I have been tested at a third grade writing level .I am going to be 45 next week<br />
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I have cried most of my life because of others out right stupidity .<br />
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We have gifts --we have gifts well beyond what non dyslexics could ever understand. <br />
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Please find some support from others now !!!! it is really important !!!! <br />
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Find other dyslexics where you live and can talk to .Maybe you can get a group going where you live that meets once week or so ..<br />
Anyone who picks on you has problems ,anyone who will try to hold you back from getting the help and support you need has problems.-they do

You must remember to fully Love the Breath of Life & Love within you. It will sustain you, protect you, and continue to give you reasons to keep going...when it all seems like rusty air. Let it open up that dry well, you Dear Spirit.<br />
You need the pure waters of the Earth and the Creator to wash you back awake. Much Love & Many Blessings, livingwell