My Time In Hell

I am so very sensitive.  I have been sensitive in one way or another my whole life.  In kindergarden I wore a fancy suit to class for picture day or something, and when everyone gathered around me, upon entering the classroom, and started oowing and awing I felt so happy that I cried.  As a cover, I said that one of the kids had said something bad.  He denied it and his twin brother said he heard him say it (lol).  It's always been easy to make me cry.  I was picked on a lot in elementary school.  When I was 16, I was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder(OCD), which I have had all my life.  And when I was 23, I was diagnosed with also having schizoaffective disorder, which I know I must have had since I was 13.  Over the last 7 or 8 years, my emotional hypersensitivity gradually increased to the point it's at today, i.e. system overload! or critical mass!  Usually I will get offended by something someone does, like if they are short with me or say something in a negatively suggestive way.  I'll say something to the person(sometimes, and usually after long tormenting bouts of intense thought) and an argument will ensue, leaving me defeated as the inevitable unsuccessful loser of the argument and leaving me feeling worse than before knowing that further confrontation will only make things still worse.  I can't stand for someone to get away with screwing me over, and usually people do it in such subtle ways that others look at me like I'm crazy for noticing it.  Every day I get at least five insults, and I am not imagining this.  It's so exhausting and leaves me so drained that I hardly have any time for enjoyable activities.  I can't do anything until I feel these issues are settled in my favor, and I often even think of past insults.  Just before I found this website, by the grace of God, and started writing this, I had to lay down and try to sleep because I couldn't get the thoughts of past and present insults out of my head.  And I still couldn't stop thinking about my problems.  I've got it rough.  I am suicidal, and these offenses tax my perserverence.  I need help.  I've been to many therapists and psychiatrists, but they don't help.  I take four different medications for my emotional problems.  I stopped going to therapy because the therapists **** me off by not acting compassionate and sympathetic( I don't mean pity, just not a cold caluse reptile, is that so much to ask).  Besides the nearest place to see therapy is 65 miles away, since there's only two therapists to choose from at the nearer clinic, 30 miles away, and they are both incompetent.  I am oversensitive, or could it be that I am hyper aware of what others overlook, although it may very well be really there.  I am detail oriented.  I need help, but there's nothing wrong with who I am.  I am a great person.  I personally believe that I am a little emotionally ahead of my time.  That may sound egotistical but why not?  I'm sure there are many others out there with this problem/enhanced awareness.  I hope a solution can be found for the pain and difficulties it causes.