Crank

I was a big emotional late bloomer - when I say that, I mean I didn't truly develop emotions of my own really until about 20, 21. For the period of 12-19 - I spent most of my time: feeding off the emotions of others and using that fuel a need for any kind of attention. Then I got involved with a destructive psychotic older woman and the odd thing was that I discovered that under intense pain and suffering; my empathic ability disappeared. It was like I couldn't feel anything beyond my own furious feelings. A 3 year hiatus and me jumping back into a customer service job refocused my ability to be empathic. The difference between now and then is that now it's cranked up.  I look at people and I read the way they walk, talk, facial expression, tone of voice. It's my mind works over time figuring out if this person is one I can say a quick word to or if I should shut up or if they need someone to put a little 'boom-boom' in their day. I'm definitely empathically endowed.

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4 Responses Mar 2, 2009

I had one of those relationships too, mine lasted 27 years. We've been divorced for almost 3 years now and I'm still fighting my way out of hell. At least now I don't have nightmares anymore and my empathy is recharged.

Especially when u don't understand what's really going on. well when I donno what to say I just shut up :P <br />
I basically try to figure out what to say but in case I fail I keep my mouth shut.

scary right? I feel numb coz i dunno what to do with the feedback I receive. I end up not trying to do anything. even though sometimes i know someone needs help I can't make a move.

Being an empath is both a blessing and a curse. I've learned to tone it down or give it a boost depending on the situation.