Dedicated To The Love Of My Life…..

I live to love and I love to live. That was the way things were when I was young. I always looked for that undying unyielding lover that would never love another more than me. You know, that 80s movie type of love. No matter how far away we were from each other, our love would last forever. And ever…and ever……and ever…
I thought I found that type of lover in you. With my rose colored glasses on I fell head over heels in love with you. I forsake all others. I wanted to share my innermost thoughts and feeling with you, so that way we could mesh as one. I looked into your eyes and you saw my soul. Everything that I was or could ever become. I knew that our love would last forever. And ever…and ever…and ever...
The day we got married was the happiest day of my life. There wasn’t a Disney movie in the world that could depict the amount of love that was in the air on that day. I could hear my heart beat to the tune of unconditional love. I have waited for this day all of my life. My soul mate, the person that I would grow old with for the rest of my life. I wanted everything that love had to offer and more. I knew that this day our love would last forever. And ever… and ever… and ever…
Five years down the road my whole world has tumbled down like a pile of unsecure bricks. The heart that I loved you with is now destroyed. You took my love and gave it to another. The whole time that I was blinded by love, you were blinded by lust. I never realized that you never felt the same for me as I’ve always felt for you. My rose colored glasses were trampled on by your evil deeds. I have nothing left to give. I know now that I was wrong to say that our love would last forever. And ever… and ever… and ever…
annshanae69 annshanae69
31-35, F
1 Response May 15, 2012

I can relate so well.................... to the words that you have written here. <br />
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I went through a similar experience as I married my high-school sweetheart and after 18 yrs together, 4 kids, and marriage counseling, he left me for an 18 yr old and a 21 yr old home-wrecker !<br />
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I thought I would surely die from the severe emotional, mental, and heart-ache that I endured.<br />
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I will tell you this....You can make it ! Do not give that man the power to destroy your heart and soul. I know you are hurting and I believe that by reaching out as you have and maybe going to a divorce support group, will be able to vent and cry and heal !<br />
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There is a beginning, a middle, and an end to this heart-ache. I am here if you need someone to talk to.<br />
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Sandy :)

thanx, everyday I feel like I'm in a parralel universe where whats wrong is right and whats right is wrong. But, I am currently attending college to become a nurse. I ahve a 3.7 GPA and a member of the honor society. i have two lovely children. So basically, that is what keeps me grounded for now. The reason why I joined this group is to share my experiences with others like me and yourself. The comment that you wrote to me will get me through this battle. You are an angel! Thanx again!!;)

Thank you for the warm response. You are so wise to make such a " GREAT " career choice and you have an awesome GPA score !

Good for you. I am also glad to hear that your two lovely children are helping to keep you grounded. Being a mother is one of the most wonderful gifts we can ever receive.

You are truly blessed to have such endurance to maintain your studies, be a mother, and go through the pain of what this man did to you.

I believe everything does happens for a reason, even if it does sound so clich'e.

This man was NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU ! You will be exposed to some wonderful caring and compassionate people in the health field and I wouldn't be surprised if you met a wonderful Dr., Surgeon, Pharmacist, ect.............that will give you the proper love and respect you and your little family deserve !

Do not EVER allow ANYONE to love you less than you love yourself.

Best wishes,