Estranged From Son
It is hard to describe the pain of being estranged from a family member, especially at Christmas. I divorced my abusive husband when my son was 16. I had waited too late. My son was abusive to me as well, and when he hit me hard across the head with a pillow out of anger, I finally had to let him go live with his father. I paid child support until he was 21, and half his college for 4 years. To make a long story short, when I quit paying for his college, he quit talking to me. Didn't invite me to his wedding. Has totally shut me out of his life. Every Christmas is a struggle as I wonder if I had just kept my son if things would have been different. But every time I ask the question, I know the answer is no. And I hate myself for it.