Tonight it all just hit me at once, I realized just on how much I love him and how much it hurts to be away from him. My boyfriend first deployment is coming up soon and I never really thought about it. was to caught up about how happy I was and how In love I am with this boy. I didn't really get the chance to ever miss my boyfriend because we were always texting, or talking on the phone or skype date. We were always talking and then I start to think about the very first deployment and I start to cry because he is not even gone and I already miss him. I think about how I will not be able to see him or talk to or hear his voice for a long time, unless I call his voice mail at night just to hear it every night.and the nights I won't be able to be held or hold him and sleep alone at night. Those nights and days when you have to wait for the letter and is the only thing that lets you know that he is okay and safe. But I knew what I was walking into. I signed up for this and I'm not a quitter. He is the best thing that has ever happend to me and I love him with all my heart. He is worth every penny. He is worth the tears, the pain, the frustration and everything else that comes with this job because at the end, you get rewared for all you have done and you get to see him again. You get to hold him and kiss him and have him safe in your arms. This job will not be easy but like I said, I signed up for this and I contuine to do it because I love him. His love keeps me going, and everything else. I don't need a ring on my finger to stay or wait for him. Because his love is strong enough for me. I could wait forever! Not a easy life to anyone who is new at this but at the end it is worth everything, I promise!