Omg Please Help Me

I am obsessively jealous, i don't know what to do. I'm so unhappy even when i should be happy i've been with my boyfriend for 4 going on 5 years this year. i'm so

jealous I'm depressed. i had a childhood where i was always alone i had nobody to depend on. my boyfriend is great but he cheated on me the first year we was

together  he is really a good person , and it seems as though  I'm ruining the person he is. i am the most nicest you would know but when i get jealous its like i'm a

totally different person i can't even think i just do and say alot of bad things. i have even hit my bf a lot of times because i'm so jealous. i have no friends , all i have is

him and his family because we are in a different country. if i do not get help with this am gonna loose him somebody please talk to me please help me. i don't know

what else to do and it seems as though i can't talk to anybody. I am between 21 and 30  very beautiful and iintelligent but I'm so insecure because i feel like i had

nobody and the only person i have is gonna leave me soon and I'm gonna end up alone again......tears please help me!

shabap shabap
22-25, F
Feb 15, 2010