I started a small antique and furniture business in October of this year. I have been losing money since. I was in such shock,depression and fear that I have not been able to function and have made a lot of mistakes and bad decisions based on fear. My goal was to get through the holidays which I did. Now I have no other choice but to file for bankruptcy. I had convinced myself after the holidays that the only solution to my problem was suicide and waisted 2 months trying to figure out how to do it. This past Monday I realized how foolish and selfish that would be. I am meeting a lawyer on Monday and I am scared to death. I know it is going to be hard and I will probably lose everything I have worked for in my life but I am not willing to lose my soul over money and things. I don't want my situation to cause my family and friends to hurt and I know it will. I will be brutally honest and post how I manage through this mess I have created. There is not a lot of information from people who have gone through this hell. I hope my experience will help someone like me. I would appreciate any advice or words of hope.
Written on March 7th, 2009