I Am Fat and Hate Myself
i am so disgusted with myself! I let myself go. I eat just because i can. Today i consumed 4000 calories. It makes me wince thinking about it. I am short, fat, and a disgusting nasty pig. I am not comfortable in my own skin. Damn who can help me now? I cant control my appetite. I cant stay on a diet. Or an exercise program. Yet everytime i look at the mirror, i breakdown in tears. Everytime clothes stop fitting i sob uncontrollably. But why cant i stop feeding my misery? Am i feeding my body or that empty void i have within? Will this vicious cycle end? I just don't know anymore...