I am 5'7 and 205 pounds. In high school I used to be 120 pounds and looked sick, but I felt beautiful. I hate myself so much for how much weight I put on. I hate going outside without a sweater on, and hate pictures of myself. I want to change and lose weight but I find myself not having the drive or motivation, getting depressed and end up just eating. I just hate myself so much :(.
Calicogirl20 Calicogirl20
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 21, 2014

Take care of yourself, and your health and your weigh will take care of it's self. Stop hiding sweetie. We all have things about ourselves we don't like. Your weight is a way bigger deal to you than it is to others around you.
So go on and get on with your life. Once you change your attitude and thereby lower your stress you will see a change in your body.
It is ok to seek out counseling or a support group to help you break the habit of eating out of depression or because your bored. Many people need assistance with that. Be it under eating or over eating it is a real problem and not something to feel guilty about. Only seek help to deal with it.