Rough Night!We have those days, or in this case night. My son has been doing very well but I swear he gets his monthly just like females. Usually, for about 3 days out of the month, be gets into these moods. It was an all the time thing before the meds so rather grateful that we've narrowed it down to a few days but so hard to get through. Tonight I was dead tired, to the point that I stopped thinking and just planned on getting home and relaxing. Ah but not the case. Although I left the office on time I had a teen who is in THAT mode, a toddler that is oh so sick and a little man who let his other side take over. Managed to get rid of the teen, got an early appointment in the after care pediatrics for baby girl and all seemed pretty good. Kept them busy during our long Dr wait by reading a cool book on animals and playing Simon Says, so was really confident that once we got home we'd be good. DELUSIONAL AM I! Didn't make it home before it started to crumble. Picked up the pizza and went to get the meds for her and as I was in line talking to the pharmacist I felt the hits. He had her shoe and was just swatting my arm from the backseat over and over. The woman in the window couldn't see this so tried to continue with my business and get parked to handle the situation. He basically lost it all the way home and I became the punching bag. Once home I figured food would calm him but wrong again because he kept up. Not only did he pour a huge amount of garlic salt over the entire pizza he then got mad and began to kick, hit, pinch and throw. I did my best to hold him down but each time I thought he was past it I'd get beat up again. Right now I can deal with the physical hurt that I'm feeling but the heart ache is more than I can cope with. I want to help him, I want to protect him, I want to give him whatever I can to get him through it all but I feel like I'm failing during these events. Eventually he comes out of it and hugs me and says "I'm sorry mommy that I beat you up" but getting to that point takes so much out of me that right now I'm just feeling broken.
mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 7 Responses 0 Oct 20, 2010