I Am Tired

I am sick... and tired.

I am sick and tired of all of it. I am sick of being sad, being lonely, being angry, being pissed.

All of it.

I have no more tears to shed. I'm tired of getting drunk and bawling on the person next to me.

I don't want to be angry, I don't want to feel so damn sad and empty any more.

I want to stop carving up my arm and legs just to feel something again.

I am just tired.

But know this; despite all of the above I still care for you. You may not know it, you may have forgotten about me all these years, but you are still whole and bright in my heart. No matter how frozen and or chained up it is, it yearns for you. How I want to let you know.

I will do anything for you. Anything... Just to see you smile, even if it's only a picture, I don't care. As long as I know you're happy, I'm fine with it.

If there is anything I can do, I do not care whether I go against god or man, nothing will stand in my way. Even if you never know, as long as you can smile...
thatgenericguy thatgenericguy
22-25, M
Dec 18, 2012