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Broken Soul

I always feel that I am incomplete. It's like a part of my soul is lost somewhere or dead. It makes me so vulnerable and sensitive (sometimes paranoid) that even one negative comment on my post or an odd stare can crush me into pieces.

I don't know what to do when I am in a situation like this. Usually I just hide myself away. I don't argue and fight for myself like many others do. I admire them and want to be as strong as them, but I am not capable of doing it. And I know I will never be. Sigh! I am just too broken to be repaired.

SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 13, 2009

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I JUST NOTICED THE DATE OF YOUR POST. I HOPE BY NOW YOU'VE FOUND RECOVERY & THE BROKEN PIECES OF YOU HAVE BEEN REPAIRED.

HI! I READ WHAT YOU WROTE. THEN I READ ALL THE COMMENTS. THEN I RE-READ WHAT YOU WROTE. I REALLY FEEL FOR YOUR. I FEEL INCOMPLETE TOO, BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY THAN YOU. I'M INCOMPLETE BECAUSE I'M ALONE. .. I AGREE WITH THE ADVICE THE OTHERS HAVE GIVEN YOU, I JUST WANTED TO ADD, YOU'RE NOT TOO BROKEN TO BE REPAIRED. AS LONG AS YOU HAVE BREATH, YOUR SITUATION CAN BE IMPROVED. FROM WHAT CAN BE GATHERED OF THE ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU, THERE ARE A NUMBER OF WAYS ONE IS ABLE TO RECEIVE CONFIDENCE & STRENGTH. TURNING TO GOD IS ONE OPTION, VENTING OUT YOUR FUSTRATIONS IN A SICLUDED PLACE IS ANOTHER. THERE'S ALSO THERAPY WITH A COUNCILOR, OR IN A GROUP. I'M A CHRISTIAN, SO I BELIEVE IN GOD & HIS WORD. BUT, AT PRESENT I'M ALSO BATTLING WITH DEPRESSION. I HAVE BEEN TO GROUP COUNCILING & I REALLY ENJOYED IT. FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS NOW I'VE BEEN GOING TO SEE A COUNCILOR. I AM NOT PLEASED. BUT, YOU MUST UNDERSTAND, NOT ALL COUNCILORS ARE THE SAME. LIKE IN ANYTHING, SOME ARE BETTER THAN OTHERS. JUST NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF. MEDITATION IS SOMETHING ELSE THAT BRINGS PEOPLE INNER PEACE. YOU HAVE TO SEE WHAT WORKS BETTER FOR YOU. AS SOMEONE POINTED OUT, MUSIC, A GOOD BOOK, HERBAL TEA, A MASSAGE, EVEN A HOT BATH , OR THE FRAGRENCE OF FLOWERS ALL SET OFF POSITIVE VIBES. I HOPE & PRAY YOU FIND INNER PEACE & INNER STRENGTH.

Your worth more tha you know. Think about thing you havent done or seen yet. Grasp onto what makes you happy in life. I have felt like that when the sheer time of taking a breath hurts and makes your body shudder with pain. The agony in which your brain is splitting and aching, and your eyes so full of watery tears that any bl<x>ink you make causes your pain in your brain to pound harder. Where is the numbness you wonder where can it be when with this incrediable heartache stop..... only with time. Best of luck hang in there.<br />
Perhaps counciling and not the kind like I went and seen at first where everything can be handled and healed with beads. Don't get me wrong sound and pulse therapy can help it just wasnt the right way for me. Though sometimes lighting a fire in the middle of the desert with a small hot cup of chamomille tea and a good book sad music and a large amount of screaming and sobbing getting it off your chest can make a real big difference. This I believe will help you get a more emotional grasp of who you are. Vocalizing urself will show your mind compleate competance and initative that you can stand firm adn scream loud not caring what someone may think. Though ur in a desert this is still idoly the repore and confidence you want to build. <br />
Your not crazy your sure as hell not alone and things do get better. There are and abundance of things yet to be experienced by both of us. Its all part of getting older and learning heck I am still experiencing it. Good Luck

You will find your way, many of us have had to deal with this in our life especially when younger but some times even after gaining more life experiences and finding those who understand and can help to guide us along the way. Councling can help you through this and offers new skill sets and tools to gain prespective and help you achieve the future you seek, also helping others & finding volunteer work are good ways to feel appreciated and help build a possitive self image, it is needed in each community and you will be helping another with something they are struggling with at the moment.<br />
Hope your day is beautiful :)

I agree with the above comments (GOD is the answer)He will guied you were you should go...

Yes its uncondtitonal and no man on earth can give you that..Because we are humans and its unevitable we will make mistakes..I know if I keep my eyes on JEsus and His word in my heart I can do all things because He really gives me strength..and the things of this world will grow dimas I keep my focus on whats true and worthy of my focus. Alot of things in this world we give way to too much of our focus and time and without realizing it we have fed on worldly junk that corrups our souls. What you desire is what you become..(So your what I desire Lord) I want your love to shine in me and I can only have that when I have havd my daily bread( his word) and a relationship with God..And its real...its available..One step at a time.

I really feel for you..I know how this feels..I encourage you to seek God..He is real and He will fill that emptiness you feel. He is the Only thing that ever filled me up..I have done everything..All....I hated my life..And when His love changed me through His word. I knew I was never going back to the old way I lived. He changed everything..THe bible says..Jeremiah 29:11 <br />
I know the thoughts and plans I have for you says the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, Plans to give you a hope and a future. Seek me says the Lord and You will find me when you search for me with all your heart.:)<br />
He loves you ..So much..Let HIm in...I promise He will heal you,.