I Am Heartbroken..Yesterday my girlfriend and best friend of almost two years broke up with me suddenly. She says she has been feeling miserable for a bit of time and just can't do it anymore. I am speechless. I feel like my heart and stomach are eating me alive, I have never felt like this in my life. Everything that happens or someone says relates to her in some way and it suddenly just makes me sad every time I think of her. I spilled my feelings out over text messages/Facebook messages yesterday and she messaged me this morning asking for some time before she talks to me. I just don't know what to do in a situation like this. I told her I would give her time and that I love her so much. She keeps saying she loves me and she's sorry. I just don't know how someone could love you but stomp on your heart. Never in a million years would I just randomly leave her. I love her with all my heart and would do anything in the world for her. We were just fine 2 days ago then yesterday she breaks up with me. I'm so lost and confused, I feel like I've been punched in my stomach a million times.
Her last message to me said " i need some time before I can talk about this. I do love you so much and I feel awful for doing this to you. I will talk to you about this but I need some time before I can. please just give me some time before I talk to you. "
I replied with "I'll give you your time, I love you. I'm so sorry. "
We're each others first loves. She's 18, I'm 20.
Her reason for breaking up with me was because she just needs to be herself and I was too controlling at some points.
I always did everything for the good of her. When I met her, I got her off of smoking marijuana and drinking so heavily at the age of 16. I just tried to do everything in my power to make sure she was okay. I just feel like if we never get back together, my life is never going to be the same again. Every day I was off school or work, I always was with her and hanging out with her. She was truly my best friend. I never treated her bad, I never hit her. I had my flaws just like any other person.
I don't know what to do.