I was so much in love. I am so much in love. I can't seem to get out of it. I think it's because I loved such a quirky, unique person...and everyone else just seems dull by comparison. I sacrificed a lot to be with this person in the first place, and now I just can't get him out of my head.
This person got badly hurt by their ex-girlfriend in the past. She lives in another state. But we dated for about a year and a half and he seemed to be completely over it. We had wonderful happy times...life was really beautiful for me like it's never been before. But the ex-girlfriend and her family got stranded here on the way to see family for Christmas. So she stayed at my boyfriend's house. And guess what they did that night? All night?
He lied to me for weeks. Even though he didn't love me, he used me a little longer. He played mind games with me and kept going back and forth, hurting me again and again. He broke up with me over the phone. And now he says he never loved me...it's like the year or so of wonderful never happened. Even though we were both happy.
He'll probably start trying to woo his ex again. She contacted me, to apologize, but mostly just to rub it in. I won, you lost. Ha ha.
I just feel completely lost. I know I shouldn't love this person, I shouldn't want this person, but I've loved him for so long, and he's already forgotten about me. Maybe nothing we shared was real, nothing at all. And now I'll never be a part of his life.
I don't know what to do now....he said he still feels close to me and wants to be friends. But this is getting harder and harder for me to do. After what happened I feel so hurt and worthless all the time. But I miss him terribly when we're apart...I wish I could stay away, I wish I could stop feeling this way. What should I do?