Pulling Away

I'm the kind of person with very few, but close friends. But ever since my repressed memories started resurfacing, I started pulling away from my friends. I want to be alone, but I also am terrified of being so. My experiences have traumatized me to believe everyone can and will most likely hurt me. Sometimes I just wish someone could read my mind and when I tell them I'm fine, I want them to look at me and tell me that they know I'm not. I was raped multiple times and tortured. The memories are still vivid and last time I shared an experience, the person ended up not believing me. It crushed me. But I moved on. You always have to keep moving. I just wish I wasn't feeling so incredibly alone.
Brielle18 Brielle18
18-21, F
Jan 17, 2013