I Don'T Want To Feel Pain Anymore.

I walk around every day thinking about ending my life. Sometimes the feeling is do strong, that I want to do it right now. If I were to tell anyone this, they would be shocked, because I'm not the type of girl that appears that way. No one would ever picture me doing that, mainly because I don't show my pain, not where they can see it. I smile through the pain, and the sorrow and sadness that I've been through. I still don't see what the point is for me to be here on this earth, and I would rather go when I want and how I want. I've even thought about my death do much, that I've gone as far as to plan out my funeral, and what I want done with my body. I think this website and knowing I'm not alone is the only thing that's saving me. I know that I may get past this pain I'm feeling at some point, but right now I just don't see the point. I don't want to give up, but I don't want to feel pain the rest of my life.
Iflywithmyownwings Iflywithmyownwings
26-30, F
1 Response Sep 21, 2013

I know this sound cliche but never give up on yourself. Every breath is a second chance.