So I ended up giving in and calling Sean. I knew it was a bad idea I just didnt know how bad.
I called him hoping to god he wouldnt pick up, he did so i hung up. He called me back and I said "Hi" and he said "I just got a call from this number" and I said "yeah" and he was all "yeah who is this, Sarah?" and im all "No" and he was all "Well i dont know know anyone else with such an attractive voice"...I dont talk to the guy for 3 days and hes already forgotten about me. Apparently hes REALLY hooked on this Sarah chick.
Too bad that didnt push me over the edge, I dont think anything really will. I have to quit cold turkey and do it all by myself which im horrible at, obviously.
I cant believ I just did that.