I Don't Know How Anorexic I Am

 i am 25 years old i had a baby 15 months ago. my body is definitely different i don't like it i am back to pre pregnancy weight but i still feel fat as ever. i look at skinny women online and wish to be them i try workout programs and then quit i really start something good like eating healthy and then want a fast fix and stop eating so much this will last for a day or two then i crash i stuff my face and start saying no more. eat healthy workout be good then it starts over again. i don't know how anorexic i am cause i don't starve myself for days on end. if anyone has advice please help i feel like two people one im not fat but then i look in the mirror and automatically fat fat fat fat.

monkeydoodle monkeydoodle
22-25
Mar 16, 2009