All In My Head

I used to be so happy. I used to be so optimistic. I used to believe that everything was going to work out for me.
But then something changed. I'd kill to know what it is, to know what went wrong and where and why. But I never will. And now all that's in my head are these thoughts.
I constantly try to pretend they aren't there, to cover them up, to appear fine, normal, strong, healthy. But they're in there, and I fight with them everyday. I know I'm not that bad off. I know I have never had any real problems. I know that they are irrational. I know that it's all in my head.
But that just invalidates them and makes them worse. They are unrelenting and I struggle against them because if I stop, then everything is going to fall apart.
AttackedByMonsters AttackedByMonsters
18-21, F
Dec 16, 2012