Energy.What is normal?
To many people you would look at me and I would appear normal, but so many days I feel far from normal.
My emotions are constantly changing in me. One minute I could be happy as can be and the next moment I could be just as sad. My emotions are constantly changing. I am an extremely emotional person.
When a situation arises in life, I get highly stressed, I overreact. For years, I've been trying to work on that, but it does not matter, I always overreact. I am smart enough to always give myself time to calm down before I make a decision about such a situation.
The problem with me, I think, is that I have never figured out how to think for myself or even remotely be comfortable enough in my own skin. The way I honestly live is through other people. I have never found my own personal hobby to get into. You know why? Because I'm an impatient person. If I pick something up, I automatically assume I should be good at it. If I pick something up and I'm not, I give up on it, and try to find something new.
I guess, in a way, that's why I always found photography to be my out. And that's also why I've been such a people pleaser in life. I live through others passions in life. I get that vibe from them, and that is honestly enough for me.
I dunno. I am far from normal.
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