The Past, Present, And Future

It's like the past is just a dream. what happened in the beginning was so magical, but it always fades, it always goes away.

People change, people adapt, and then their real selves come out. The person I am today is no longer the same. I have become jaded, I have become frustrated, I have expectations of the future, and where I want to be.

At 31, I have less patience, I feel I have less time to get the things I want for my future done. These years are a crucial moment for me.

I want children. I do. However, at this point in my life, I just don't know if I'll ever have them.

I want a future. I want a decent place to live, it doesnt' have to be a home, but a place that gives me a little space to walk from room to room.

There are a lot of wants, but the way I am living now, I just don't know if I'll ever get there. I feel as if my dreams are being squashed all around me.

You have one life to live, and boy, did I ever screw this one up.
Deee1930 Deee1930
36-40, F
2 Responses Dec 7, 2012

Would you be any closet to your dreams without me? If you think you would be, then I should leave.

At least in my case, things always happen when I least expect them. I didn't think I'd have kids when I was 31. I wasn't even sure I wanted them. Then I met someone, married at 33, first kid at 34 and another at 36, my wife was the same age. You never know. Hang in there D.