I Was Hurt; I Am Alone; I Am Finding God

I had just come out of an abusive, traumatizing relationship one year ago. I was the victim instead; I opened myself to much and allowed someone to come in and hurt me, whether on purpose or not. Times have changed since then, and I've learned what I need in my life; I've learned that in order to be happy I need to rely on myself and no one else--but I'm so alone. Everyday I find myself on the verge of tears, hoping some girl will look at me differently, or find that special something inside of me, bringing her in. I've taken therapy, and I'm definitely not destructive or suicidal over it. I just want someone by my side to guide me, and keep me safe at night.

Two friends of mine are devout Mormons from the state of Utah. They seem so happy, and they are able to enjoy life, even if things are thrown at them. I've taken the initiative to research into Mormonism, and while it's not for me, I am driven in a search to find my place with God. I was raised Catholic, but I want to be Christian; to pray to the Lord and know He is here for me, watching me.

I might not find that special someone for me anytime soon, even with a job, fit lifestyle, education, and a passion that pays me back, but I hope that if--no, when--I find God, he will be here to help me along the way.
Balloonwolf Balloonwolf
18-21, M
1 Response Dec 2, 2012

Balloonwolf,
I understand your situation. Fortunately the Lord Jesus are everywhere. He looked for us first, by coming to earth to pay for our sins on the cross of Calvary. From there He roused form death and now He is sitting on the right hand of God the Father. Jesus send His Holy Spirit to be with us always.
Now if you pray to Jesus and ask Him for the things you want, He will give it to you in His OWN time. Just trust Him and believe with your whole heart that Jesus is your personal Saviour, and you need to do nothing more to receive salvation.
I am praying for you right now and will keep you in my prayers.