My Son Ignored Me On Mother's Day
M y family is my son. He loves me I know, but on Mothers Day, the time I thought I would hear from him, he completely ignored me. I thought it didn't hurt, but it does. Here it is 2 days after Mothers Day and I'm crying. Sometimes he brings up that I did some things to him that he won't ever forget. I was mean and I've said I was sorry many times. I can't keep on saying it. He's having a hard time making a living in Santa Monica and was angry when I moved to Taiwan to work. But I had to make a living too. We've always been close, and he's really the only family I have. But on Mothers Day he didn't send a text message or an email even. I know now that his actions were intentional. How do I know? I just do. In a few days or weeks he will write and say something was wrong with his phone or something like that, but I know the truth-that he let me down when it counted. I never forgot his special days-ever. I am so sad it is hard to pull out of it I don't want to be vulnerable like this again. When I know what was happening, I sent him some food cards for restaurants in the area. Why I did that, I don't know. I felt hurt and so I give. I don't want anybody to analyze me. It makes me very angry to be told this and that when people don't know me. I need something else, not to be analyzed. If you have to do that do it to yourself. I'm sad and I take medicine for it. But today I'm sad anyway. I just had to get it out.