Should I ... Or Shouldn't I
So here is a lame one .... *sigh* ... trust me ... you'll get bored very soon. Same ol thing you always hear. So ... on with it. One of my best friends has confessed his "un-dying love" for me. Hahahaha .... okay not really. But ... he said he has liked me for a really long time and wants to be with me. I've known him for 10 years. I consider him one of my best friends and he is always there when I need him. More realistically ... he never leaves my damn house unless I am sleeping so he is ALWAYS around. Most annoying. And I feel partially to blame because there was a night when I was drunk and I made out with him. AND I DON'T REMEMBER IT!! Honest!!! So I feel that that one incident made him think I had an interest in him. Well ... he is my friend of course I have an interest in him, but not so much of a interest to be WITH him. I mean ... sometimes I think about it and maybe it wouldn't be all that bad. But most the time I think about it and I just feel disgusted. Not in a mean way. We had this on-going thing throughout the years when we would tell people we were brother and sister (because we are so close) and actually convinced a lot of people into believing it. And trust me, if you saw us you would think it impossible for us to even be related. But you know how the world is these days, anything is possible.
Anyways, back to the topic, I'm just really frustrated. I mean I've been single for about five months now and I don't want to be in a relationship at the moment and he knows this but he is pushing. And I have asked him numerous times to just stop it but he still does. (maybe that is why I am getting frustrated) He is a good guy, he is caring, makes me laugh (sometimes), he is responsible, yada yada yada. But he never stops talking!!! And sometimes he is just really really annoying. UGH!! I'm getting frustrated again. How do I just tell him NO! and without hurting his feelings .... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Maybe I should just tell him I have no interest in guys anymore =) Oh that is just mean. I love guys! Just not this one ... not in the relationship kinda way, but in the brotherly sisterly kinda way.