Was It A Hate Crime?

Dear heart, I was horrified when I heard what had happened, and like you, I do NOT understand how humans can treat each other that way.... no matter how old I get , I will never understand it. I can't sit here and tell you for sure that I know why you feel depression creeping in, but I do know it is like an adrenaline rush wearing off.... as time goes by your mind begins to play with all the questions of "why" and how to deal with it. Your body was given a traumatic jolt and even though you say you are alright, it has taken it's toll on you both physically and now mentally. I only wish I could be there to help you through this. You know that I have a candle lit for you and I'm praying for your health, strength, and peace of mind. Blessings to you sweet friend. ((hugs))

Horrendous! Absolutely horrendous! You know that you are like a little brother to me! Anyway that I can help, sweetie, just ask! :(

I am glad to hear you're alright.. I can't believe people are still doing things like this! I'm so sorry that you went though this... but I'm even more sorry that it took something like that to make you realize your life was worth living.. we never talked often but I'm glad you've realized that. The way people treat each other disgusts me. It's sad that its 2010 and people's sexuality is such an ordeal that people are treated this way. If you ever need to talk, message me anytime..

mmjgg- I am going to take a different perspective on your situation. Although the motive for trying to run you down may have been homophobic, the way you have reacted to it resembles what happens to soldiers in Iraq when they are injured or lose friends in an IED attack. It is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Since it has become more recognized lately, better therapy has evolved and you would not have to out to your parents or anyone else unless you wanted to. All your therapist needs to know is that a bunch of nuts tried to run you down and now you get flashbacks and often feel depressed.

@mmjgg--OK sounds like we got to the core of the problem and it sounds like you already know what you have to do. I understand your fear of labels like ****. Labels are a lot like guns. They can be lethal in the hands of malicious people. I am not qualified to advise you on either of the two labels you are dealing with now, but for me it has been "ASD" I was not aware of this for most of my life but throughout my life ignorant people have tried to pin other labels on me like NERD, DUMBO, Slow Poke, AIRHEAD, RETARD, and even F** etc. At some point I rejected any labels as a defense shield. Unfortunately, that also shut me out from proper labels that would have made a big difference in my development and mental health if applied by benevolent people. ASD or Aspergers is one of those. It got me to the EP site and that has made a big difference in how I see myself. You might start here too. If there is an EP group that addresses the **** label then you will find a good safe starting place to open up and overcome your fear. If not, then maybe it is an opportunity to start a group. PM me if you'd like more personal conversation on this. Good luck!

Oh honey, I am so sorry I am just now reading about this atrocious incident. I have been thinking about you and wondering how you were. This saddens me, but also has me fearful for your state of mind. Please, as so many before me already said, don't hold these feelings in, use us, your friends to talk to, or seek therapy if you feel that is the necessary thing. Just horrified this happened to you, darlin, and I am so very sorry.