I Am Gay
Yes. It is true! I have seen them together. Well this is my story.
We were a year a part because we couldn't afford to be together. While that happen he met someone else, and Kept it a secret from me during six month. Well, after he telling me this. I decided to go and visit him and see if we could work things out. Bad Idea! Nothing has worked out at all, and I have been 10 months now stuck in this crazy relationship.
To blame him... not really. I have to admit that the one that has been trying to work things out is me not him. Sometimes he thinks he loves me... and he will say it.. although he rather be sleeping with his now boyfriend for a year.
More crazy.... I have recently moved to his place... yep.. he said it would be a good idea for us to be together. He thinks I was too alone in my last place.
Even worst.... now that I lost my place and got stuck at his place... he says he doesn't want to come home anymore.. Guess why.. because I live here now..
He's been traveling overseas for the last two weeks so he hasn't come home yet. Two days ago he was telling me how much he loves me and how bad he wanted to see me. Yesterday it was the opposite.
While I've been drinking my problems away.. I have realized that it's not helping, if not making it worst. I need to quit drinking asap. Get my life back, and put things in order for once. I just don´t know how to start .
This really feels like a nightmare that never ends. I have gone out with a couple of guys, but nothing has worked out, as I am still in love with my boyfriend. Besides I wouldn't want to hurt someone. I need to put myself together in order to bring some positive into somebody else's life.
Now that I will be sober I will see the progress... I hope not to feel so damn lonely again.
I will write back while moving forward.
We were a year a part because we couldn't afford to be together. While that happen he met someone else, and Kept it a secret from me during six month. Well, after he telling me this. I decided to go and visit him and see if we could work things out. Bad Idea! Nothing has worked out at all, and I have been 10 months now stuck in this crazy relationship.
To blame him... not really. I have to admit that the one that has been trying to work things out is me not him. Sometimes he thinks he loves me... and he will say it.. although he rather be sleeping with his now boyfriend for a year.
More crazy.... I have recently moved to his place... yep.. he said it would be a good idea for us to be together. He thinks I was too alone in my last place.
Even worst.... now that I lost my place and got stuck at his place... he says he doesn't want to come home anymore.. Guess why.. because I live here now..
He's been traveling overseas for the last two weeks so he hasn't come home yet. Two days ago he was telling me how much he loves me and how bad he wanted to see me. Yesterday it was the opposite.
While I've been drinking my problems away.. I have realized that it's not helping, if not making it worst. I need to quit drinking asap. Get my life back, and put things in order for once. I just don´t know how to start .
This really feels like a nightmare that never ends. I have gone out with a couple of guys, but nothing has worked out, as I am still in love with my boyfriend. Besides I wouldn't want to hurt someone. I need to put myself together in order to bring some positive into somebody else's life.
Now that I will be sober I will see the progress... I hope not to feel so damn lonely again.
I will write back while moving forward.
By:
Belmont01
Age:
26-30
