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I Am Gay

I Am My Own Rival

By: GG1234
Written on November 30th, 2011
I can't be myself.
I wont allow it.
why is it that i can't just be free?
why can't i just let myself go ?
No worries just me and my freedom.
I am dying inside.
I am a flickering candle light thats about to die.
I am a bird trapped in a cage.
Everyday i slowly drown inside.
Loss of hope , loss of light , emptyness.
I am hollow.
The future doesn't seem kind.
It doesn't seem bright.
Or is there a future?
I am weak, i'm not brave, I can't even pursue my own dreams I can't even respect myself enought to be honest with myself and be happy.
happy....
When was the last time i was truly happy, where I wasn't feeling alone, isolated in my secret, cold .. lifeless
I am dead.
I want to go away, I want to be gay and happy about it.
I want to love and live and be around people that will not make me feel different, like i am hiding some hideous disgusting disease.
i want to be gay and proud and love my life.
But most importantly .
I want to be me.
By: GG1234
Age: 18-21 , Male
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  • GG1234
    GG1234

    I give you my full support if you ever need someone to talk to or to rant about your day

    I'd me more than glad to listen ;), LOVE YOU GUYS ON EP. TAKE CARE xx

    Dec 19, 2011
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  • GG1234
    GG1234

    Thank you guys, your comments are all so beautiful and supportive

    I came out 3 days ago to my cousin and one of my close friends.

    they both took it very well and told me that whats important is my happiness.

    I'm still not completely out tough, it was a huge stepping stone because it was the

    first family member I ever came out to. Before it was just friends and friends on this website.

    Dec 19, 2011
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  • warmfuzy
    warmfuzy

    Simply beautiful!!



    I recently came out to my parents. I told them that I was bisexual and my father accepted me, but my mother...oh my...she didn't speak to me for days. I was so heartbroken during those days. They felt like weeks. Finally after a few days, she spoke to me. We had a looooong convo about me being bisexual. At the end of our convo she finally accepted me and said that all she wants for me is to be happy!

    You will know when you are ready to let others know. I thought I would never tell my parents about my sexuality (especially when I was going through the confused stage) but I finally did. I finally felt ready to tell them and to be true to myself. As of right now, only my parents and close friends know about my sexuality. I haven't come out to the world yet, but I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my back. Sending you good vibes! :)

    Dec 3, 2011
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